Friday, October 31, 2014

Autumn 2014


Autumn has been good so far. The view and surroundings are beautiful, masya Allah. The leaves already turned into a golden colour and scattered on the ground..subhanallah

It's a school holiday now. We spent most of the time at home while Babah has been busy at the lab. But two days ago, after Babah came back we all went to Victoria Park as it was sunny. So we did not want to miss it

The park looked so gorgeous with shades of colours hence we took pictures. Kids were also happily running and crunching on the leaves. What a precious moment..we're gonna miss Autumn soon

Lastly, hope you enjoy the pictures! :)

Ps. i had undergone a surgical management (lbh krg DnC) to remove tissue in my womb due to miscarriage thursday last week. According to doc, it's a short and safe surgery if there's no complication.

it would be just around 15 minutes and I'll be awaked after half an hour BUT I only woke up after 4 hours! Allahu Akbar...i lost words as soon as i looked at my watch. I hope it's taken as Kifarah for all the sins i've done before. Huhu Only Allah knows how thankful i am to be alived..*cry*

Salam Maal Hijrah 1436. May this new year brings goodness, happiness and success to all of us. Amin..

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Weekend Getaway


First of all thank you who have kindly wished, prayed and motivated me. I'm feeling much healthier physically and emotionally than before. I am truly touched with your kindness and I really appreciate all. May Allah bless you always dearies.:')

Anyway, our dearest Iris had requested to go on caravan holiday again before going back to Malaysia for good. So Babah had booked one for us at Ashcroft Coast Holiday Park in Kent last month through The Sun Holiday. ;)

Since Kent is just an hour away driving from London, we proceed with the plan as we promised the kids though I'm supposed to confine myself..

But for the sake of kids, we glad we made it. And i think it was much needed for me too. I longed for vacation :D

Most of the time i stayed inside the caravan while hubby took kids out to the indoor swimming pool, shop and playground even though it was raining. The kids had so much fun! :))

As for our caravan, all looked new except there was no TV hehe but we survived as we brought laptop! ;) And we slept in the living area because there was no heater as well in the room! ( not installed yet perhaps) but that's no a biggie.

The heater at the living area was functioning and we brought extra duvet too. It warm enough especially for me. Sapu minyak herbanika panas (NR), urut2 sket bg keluar angin, pakai socks and sweater dok dlm duvet. Tido, Heaven! :D

Finally, thank you so much Babah for this weekend getaway and who did almost everything from cooking, washing and cleaning up. You're the best, we love you so much! :x


Friday, October 10, 2014

Miscarriaged :'(

Assalamualaikum. Salam Jumaat..

I was surprised to know that i was pregnant again last month. It is a blessing and rezeki from Allah indeed. We were so happy and excited for the fourth child but it's only for a while..

Unfortunately I started bleeding last week on tuesday. I was worried but then assumed it's normal because i had placenta praevia during my 2nd pregnancy or maybe i was too active. I ran, i carried up Zafri, etc. i forgot that i was pregnant! :(

But on sunday night i had a bad bad cramp like a contraction below and i slept in pain then was bleeding badly with blood clot discharge at 4am. I was panic! I told the other half and he worried too.

so on monday morning we went to GP and the doctor straightly referred me to Queens hospital. Uh oh i could feel something was not right but i gathered myself back try to relax, be patient and redha on what will i found out soon.

The doctors did internal scan first and they said most probably i had miscarriaged. I was speechless..Then i was asked to come again two days later which was last wednesday to confirm it's misscarriage. And sadly yes i had miscarriaged at 8 weeks 5 days..:'(

I was frustrated, crushed and cried inside. Rupanya tak ada rezeki lagi nak dapat baby baru..sobs.

"Allah does not burden a soul beyond more than it can bear (2:286)"

It's true. And Allah knows best. We plan but His plan is above all.

All of us including our kids were sad over the loss..not saying that i already started shopping baby apparels since we are still here in London..sobs.

Sincerely, I was phobia to pregnant again after my third delivery experience but now with the miscarriage my phobia is getting worse..:(:(

Sorry Abang, i've tried my best even though i know you will never blame on me..and you just calmly accept His Qada' and Qadar. I love you more..

Ya Allah, ampuni dosa-dosaku. Amin..! :'(

Thursday, October 2, 2014

The Best Summer Ever


Since this might be the last Summer for us, we have been enjoyed it to the fullest. Thankfully, summer this year was the best that we've ever had so far. The sun came out brightly, the weather was warm and the day was beautiful through the whole season. Some days were even gorgeous! Look at the pic below, don't you love the blue skies and white clouds? I do! ^_^

We managed to watch the changing guards event at Buckingham Palace with our good friends somewhere in August. If our friend didn't invite us to go with them I'm not sure when will we have our chance again. Thank you abg Din and kak Aza! :)

To go to this event, you are advised to check the event's schedule first. It can be cancelled due to bad weather. Also go early in the morning so you can find a spot which have a clear view of the event. From the review, the best spot is at the top step of the fountain area in front of Buckingham Palace. But from my experience, i think the best spot is actually at the gate and only if you are the most front! Huhu..

The kids were happy too! As long as they were with their bffs they were happy enough. 

The weather is important, it really influenced the mood hehe.

This year got a chance to see roses at Hampton Court Palace. Lovely roses and loved the fragrance at the garden. :)

Such beautiful memories in London!

I thank Allah for all the blessings that He has given to us from good health, great seasons, new friends, enough bounty and endless love. We couldn;t thank Him enough but hopefully we will try to become good caliphs in this world and the hereafter. Amin!

 Goodbye Suumer..Till we meet again!